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| wow i cant believe i remembered my damn password & everything to this! I wonder if anyone even reads the shit i put on here . But wow how crazy, theres some blogs that awed me! Lol like foreaaaals!
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| Havent blogged for awhile . I miss my boyfriend so much . I wish i can be with him right now and im trying not to count down the days but its just so freakin` hard ! Im hurting every night wishing i can talk to him and just be in his arms . I wanna cry too !!  But i know no one ever said long distance would be easy , but HEEY ! , he`s almost coming home sooon . or atleast i`ll get to see him in November , I HOPE ! But ive realized that being apart from eachother , makes our love &relationship so much stronger . &I know it is , because it's this feeling that i have , its like hard to explain ! &I know he's doing this for me & our future . He`s just so like sweet that he does all this things for me , which i appreciate so much . &In return i`m trying to do good in school &trying to pass my class . So i can graduate &go into college to actually do something in my life . I dont wanna be a slack off girlfriend , so i wanna do something good in the future . But yeah ugh i miss him :(
Anyways, i`ve been content with life so far tho . I honestly couldnt be any happier just because the fact that i know what he`s doing for me &i have a good relationship that i have never ever felt like this before (: &ive gotten close with my family . Which something i dont often say , but yeah everythigns been okae . But friends-wise ; its been ugh hard . Feels like im loosing all of them , but i dont know . I neeed space for some reason , because things for me have been hard &i dont wanna be around so much people right now for some reason .
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| Ssiter bought me some nike sb's yesterday ! Finally got me a pair of them , uggh but i hate how other people at school wear them , cant wear them for shiiiiiiiiiet! Makes me angry !
Uh today wasnt so much , i actually went to school today . I know how surprising , its annoying tho , hella people on my back saying oh wow you finally come to school , &yeah i know ive been slacking off but fck lay off on me puhlease! Whatever , im alright about it . It just bugs me alot &its like SHUT THE FCK UP ALREADY DUUDE! But whatever, school wasnt as boring as the other days , skipped fifth cause my stoopid ass sister didnt wanna go , so we chilled at donutstogo ! Haha , thankfully the lady was cool about it . But whatever , after that , we walked about into school . Six period was boring as fuck as usual , ugggh then after that got home ! Happy to see all my friends again tho (: after like how many daaaaaays ! Im tryna pull myself together , dont wanna see myself in the future being a bum =/ (worsest fear ever ! ) &plus Wendell wouldnt be happy about it , & i needuh do something good for him in return of him being away :( Like staying in school for him . Anyhoo's after school was eh slkfdlfjd craappy ? Same stuff i do each &everyday . Went to get some errands for my momma , &then went to kmart with my sister . I wanted to get nailpolish but she didnt have moola with her ! haha , so all good . Then went home after ;
Tomrrow's wedensday , im kinna excited ? Because my baabeey might call , even tho i know i wont get to answer =/ I might be at school , but HOPEFULLY he calls , after school ;D Itll make my day mucho better ! I know imaa be gettin some letters from him , & imaa be super happy , altho i still needuh wait for his new adress to send him letters . I miss him soo much everyday , but i feel like the days gettin nearer for me to get to see him ! Im tryna NOT to count down the days but its so fuckin hard , cant help it I miss him like crazy tho , its crazy how i could miss someone liek this , never had this expeirnce . But i know that day will SOON FINALLY come , where we will be with eacother . sometime in november (:
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| Ugh , fuck mayn people hella piss me off . i know i said i wont let people put me down , but im not like sad &shiet but im mad! Like daaamn, there are so many TWO FACES bitches nowadays! Its fuckin annoying &some dumbfucks needuh get shiet straight before running their fuckin mouths ! This is the kinnda shiet that pisses me off , people dont get the shiet they THINK or say straight ,&leaves them off to thinking what they know . fuck ! hellla people are dumb nowadays! like fuck i know hella people hate me but i dont need soemeone spreading that shiet to everyone , liek fuck keep your fuckin mouth shut! thats the reason why i dont deal with people like them ! &fuck i dont see how other people can deal with their asses , its surprsing people like that get around nowadays ! ugh forealzs mayn . well fuck that , i dont give a damn of what people can say ! You know, people dont know the real me , they should assume " i fuckin hate her , she does this &that " kinna shiet then go for it , i aint gonna stop you from hating me from whatever shiet you think about me , i honestly have never done shiet to anyone , so i know im not a bad person . atleast i know im actually a good person . so go ahead think what you want , i know who i am &whatever you think about me you can shove it !
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| Okae, well yeah im boored right now, &alot of stuff are going through my mind &idont know, its pretty stressing but when i think about it its like whatever, i miss my baby alot ! :( like really, im excited i got three letters from him already =D im soo happy. LOL, i keep reading them everyday &they make me sooo happy just reading them . especially this one part, but i cant say tho =D it got me really happy, but yeah im holding up strong for him , i loove him so much &i love him more each day everyday! (= i cant wait till when he gets home. im just gonnna be reallly happpy , but then knowing he wont be around alot more , it sucks , but ima deal with it , as much pain im gonna be him , ima stay by his side no matter where he;s at !
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